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Sewing & Photography

I have an adorable pregnant coworker, and within a 5 days of finding out she was having a girl she also put together a quilt for her unborn baby. :) Which in turn inspired me... As she was showing me the pattern and the fabric she used and was explaining to me how she made it, I wondered where the heck my sewing machine was. As soon as I got off work, I went over to my parents house that night and dug through all the boxes with my name on them, and after much trial and tribulation I finally found it! MY SEWING MACHINE!!!!! :)

I then went over to Barnes and Noble and bought these books!

Now I plan on making some pillows, quilts, purses, and maybe even some clothes. :)

So after looking through these books, and stalking some random people's (whom I don't even know) I want to pick up my photography again. I used to be really good at taking raw-unedited pictures. Here's one of my sister that I didn't edit ONE SINGLE THING...

Now once I'm done editing... they look MUCH better.. SEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

Moral of the story is... I'm going to be more creative. I'll post my projects and photography on here so whomever is reading this, can critique it. :) Farewell for now, my love.

Manipulate my mind to give my dreams the reality they deserve

I've decided that it's time to manipulate the keyboard more often, by releasing my deep dark secrets and most intimate thoughts into cyberspace. I watched the old movie "You've Got Mail" starring Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks, and it reminded me of the 'old' days when it was cool to use AOL dial-up. With computer modems holding more memory and achieving wireless internet speeds in the blink of an eye, don't you sometimes think we've lost ourselves among the technology? I believe that my mind has focused on other things, and I've lost my goals for my nearing future, my schooling, and my career. Here is a quote from that movie... It's something that Meg Ryan's character says,

"Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life - well, valuable, but small - and sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around? I don't really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So good night, dear void."

Well, after watching that movie and hearing that quote, I'm done beating around the bush. I am just going to come out and say what is screaming at me in the back of my mind... I AM NOT BRAVE! Sadly, I give up and wave the white flag of surrender when anything gets a little too tough for me. I believe that it's damaging me. I can't for the life of me find the motivation I need to stick to a healthy diet, work out on a regular basis, and budget budget budget my money! I've lost my dreams and desires for what I want my life to be when I 'grow-up'. I want to be a brave soul. I want to be a fearless dreamer. But with trying to pay off credit card debt, living on my own, working full time, and other neccessities of life... I can't seem to find the money to go to school for the last 3 semesters. I want to go back... But I don't have the financing. The horrible thing is that I THINK that I know what I want to go to school for, but then my mind swiftly and abruptly changes to something else in a different field. My life is boring, monotonous, and somewhat selfish. In reality, my life simply tiresome. I want to be one of those people that have a million and a half projects going on in their lives. They seem busy, and have a plethora of money. I believe that from now on I need to find that desire to acheive my wildest dreams and be fearless while doing it. After all, I deserve it. And so do YOU! :)

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